I decided, instead of rambling on and on forever about what's been going on throughout this pregnancy, I'd fill out a little juxtaposed questionnaire! It's probably way more fun for me to answer than for you to read, but, there's gotta be someone out there who wants this information... right? :)
How old are you: 20
When are you due: March 28th, 2013
How far along are you: 18 weeks
How much weight have you gained: 5 lbs
Are you showing yet: Definitely
Was this planned or unplanned: Unplanned for me, planned for daddy! Haha
Belly button in or out: Barely in still... already!
Happy or moody: 50/50 but my husband may give a different answer ;)
Is this your first pregnancy: No
How old are your other children: Lillian is 15 months
Who was the first person you told: David, of course.
Have you told family and friends: Yes!
What is the gender of baby: A GIRL!!! :D
You pee an estimated__times a day: At least fifteen... At least!
Latest food craving: Shrimp shrimp shrimp!
Weirdest dream since pregnant: My parents gave doctors permission to amputate my leg while I was already under anesthesia. When I came out of it, I was horrified and told them it wasn't even the leg that had been hurting. Then, I was limping down the road while being chased by an angry snake who wanted to bite and kill me, so I had to try to climb a chain link fence with only one leg to get away!!
Worst thing about pregnancy: Definitely the morning sickness! Throwing up is the worst.
Best thing about pregnancy: (other than the new addition, of course) is a change of wardrobe. Hehe
Last time you cried over something ridiculous was: Feeling lonely at the house all day while David's at work. He goes to work everyday, but I guess I was EXTRA alone that day or something..... hahaha
Labor signs: I'm pretty sure I've been having some painful braxton-hicks contractions here and there, but other than that, no. Baby's got a long time to be cookin' till she and I are ready for her to come!
Best moment this week: David felt the baby kick!!!! I've been feeling her for about 3 weeks or so now, lightly, but I finally felt her kick my hand on the outside too!
There you go :) I'd say that covers it! For all those other pregnant women I know out there, it'd be fun for you to fill this out and put it on your blog as well so we can see how similar/different our pregnancies have been so far! Feel free to add or delete any questions you'd like to make it more personal. Maybe I'll fill this out again when I'm 9 months along and see what's changed. Until then!
A színek életem. The colors of my life.
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Sweet Deal!
I'd like to take some time to publicly humiliate my husband by bragging a little about him ;) Back when I was pregnant with Lilly, I had a rare pregnancy-related illness called "Hyperemesis Gravidarum" (meaning I experienced unrelenting vomiting until it resulted in complications of dehydration and severe malnutrition.) I told him that if I was even close to being that sick with our next pregnancy, that he had to change all the dirty diapers to save me from an additional reason to throw up. To my sweet surprise, he took me seriously and we made a deal! Well, now that we're expecting another baby, I reminded him of this deal and told him I was sticking to it. Sure enough, he's been a man of his word and except for the day of his birthday this last week (and while he's at work, of course) he has changed every dirty diaper of Lilly's so I didn't have to. I'd say I'm a VERY lucky girl to have scored the kind of husband I did! Don't worry honey- four months down, only five more to go! Hehe. Myyyyy Herrrroooo :)
I call him Diaper Doody Dad!
(Get it? Duty? Doody? HA!)
Friday, October 19, 2012
No fair :(
I am signing a petition and sending it to Heaven telling God that I think it's highly unfair to allow women to get any kind of illness on top of pregnancy! Last Sunday we spent the day in Heber with my family and my nephew had one of those out of control runny noses.. I thought, "Great.. Lilly is totally going to get sick," because we all know that little kids share germs like no other, making it especially inevitable when they're sharing toys. Sure enough, the next day Lilly woke up with the same runny nose. The morning after that, David said his throat was hurting him. Guess what? The morning after THAT I woke up with a stuffy nose AND sore throat. Yippee. One of those extra fun things about pregnancy is that your immune system is pretty much shot, making me get the worst of all ends of the cold. I feel like a really bad mom in the morning when Lilly wakes up and I make her play in her crib until an hour later when I feel capable of falling out of bed, groggily picking her up and filling a bottle with milk before I collapse on the couch with a roll of toilet paper by my side. I think it's pretty fair to ask God to lighten up on the health related trials when I already feel like (or actually do) throw up 24/7, pee every 20 minutes, my back and hips are constantly out-of-wack making it really hard to walk, and have a terrible nights sleep every night because of these things. Now, I'm forced to breathe out of my mouth, which makes my nausea way worse and am sure my nose is going to start bleeding if I don't start blowing it into a cloud here pretty soon. All in all, pregnancy is hard and different for every girl. On top of all the changes and weird issues, I think it's fair to ask that annoying colds and such be exiled until AFTER the baby is outside of our bodies. Feel free to sign your name and add any comments you'd like me to send along with the letter, thanks!
Thursday, October 18, 2012
Understanding/Changing
Today, I'm going to write more of a journal entry about something I feel very strongly about. This information is quite personal, but I hope that those who read it will also make the same goal as myself - to try to be more understanding and forgiving of others - because we don't always know what they may be struggling with.
Most of the people I interact with on a daily basis today are people I've known for two years or less. That's because the majority of my new friends, are my new family! I have been so blessed to marry into a family that enjoys being together, eating together, and celebrating together so often. As much as I love everyone and this dynamic of their lives, I get discouraged because I grew up in a family quite different than David's. My family (the Czirbans) are beautiful, wonderful people, and I have always had an intense love for my parents and siblings. I am number 6 of 7 children - 6 girls and 1 boy. Since I can remember, we haven't spent holidays with our extended family, and now that my parents are empty-nesters, we rarely get-together as siblings to spend time together and catch up. For some reason, God instilled a unique personality within me, where I've always felt comfortable telling people I love them, giving hugs, and expressing my feelings openly. I say that is unique because growing up, most members of my family were not this way. Because of my need for constant affirmation of love, it was easy to become discouraged about family members, or more so about myself. I have a tendency to turn inward and personalize things that may not have been meant to do any damage.
When I became a teenager, I noticed my outward personality change from a bright countenance to one that was nearly impenetrable by hope or love. As my moods steadily sunk deeper I chose to be pro-active and began seeing a therapist. Luckily for me, after trying only two counselors out, I found a woman who I felt comfortable with. Keep in mind I was only 13 at this time. As we met and uncovered many issues I needed to work through, she diagnosed me with two (devastating yet validating to me) mental disorders. The first being Dysthymia. This disorder is a chronic depression which occurs in approximately 5% of the general population and affects women more often than men. It is usually passed down genetically (which happens to be the case in my family.) and is a constant state of low or dark moods, instead of the rollercoaster affect many other types of depression cause. People with Dysthymia have low self-esteem and problems seem harder to solve than they are in actuality.
The second disorder I was diagnosed with is Social Anxiety Disorder or Social Phobia. It seems pretty self explanatory, but goes much deeper than most people probably expect. S.A.D. is "characterized by intense fear in social situations causing considerable distress and impaired ability to function in at least some parts of daily life." ...it "involves a persistent, intense, chronic fear of being judged by others and of being embarrassed or humiliated by one's own actions." There are many physical side effects that correlate such as (listing ones I personally struggle with) blushing, sweating, panic attacks, heart race, and avoiding social interaction in general. Often times this leads to coping mechanisms that are harmful and addictive in a wide range, which I have also struggled for years with.
The point of me publicizing such personal issues is that I hope people who interact with me may understand a little bit more about why I am the way I am. If I have offended you or bothered you in anyway, especially if it be by how self-conscious I am, by my obsessions with vanity, by choosing not to participate in a game you've chosen to play, if I have "bailed" on plans with you, or have avoided a friendship that could have taken place, I'm truly sorry and am working everyday to overcome my struggles.
In learning to understand myself, I have been taught that I need to be as kind and understanding to others as I would hope they'd be to me. No one's family is perfect. No individual is perfect and we are all struggling with different addictions, disorders and trials. I can only hope that by changing myself, I can see a change in the world. That I can be of more service to those around me. That I'll be more aware of the needs of others. That my tongue will be used to bless lives instead of as a sword. I hope that if I have wronged you, that you may find it in your heart to forgive me, and that I too may become a more forgiving person.
Most of the people I interact with on a daily basis today are people I've known for two years or less. That's because the majority of my new friends, are my new family! I have been so blessed to marry into a family that enjoys being together, eating together, and celebrating together so often. As much as I love everyone and this dynamic of their lives, I get discouraged because I grew up in a family quite different than David's. My family (the Czirbans) are beautiful, wonderful people, and I have always had an intense love for my parents and siblings. I am number 6 of 7 children - 6 girls and 1 boy. Since I can remember, we haven't spent holidays with our extended family, and now that my parents are empty-nesters, we rarely get-together as siblings to spend time together and catch up. For some reason, God instilled a unique personality within me, where I've always felt comfortable telling people I love them, giving hugs, and expressing my feelings openly. I say that is unique because growing up, most members of my family were not this way. Because of my need for constant affirmation of love, it was easy to become discouraged about family members, or more so about myself. I have a tendency to turn inward and personalize things that may not have been meant to do any damage.
When I became a teenager, I noticed my outward personality change from a bright countenance to one that was nearly impenetrable by hope or love. As my moods steadily sunk deeper I chose to be pro-active and began seeing a therapist. Luckily for me, after trying only two counselors out, I found a woman who I felt comfortable with. Keep in mind I was only 13 at this time. As we met and uncovered many issues I needed to work through, she diagnosed me with two (devastating yet validating to me) mental disorders. The first being Dysthymia. This disorder is a chronic depression which occurs in approximately 5% of the general population and affects women more often than men. It is usually passed down genetically (which happens to be the case in my family.) and is a constant state of low or dark moods, instead of the rollercoaster affect many other types of depression cause. People with Dysthymia have low self-esteem and problems seem harder to solve than they are in actuality.
The second disorder I was diagnosed with is Social Anxiety Disorder or Social Phobia. It seems pretty self explanatory, but goes much deeper than most people probably expect. S.A.D. is "characterized by intense fear in social situations causing considerable distress and impaired ability to function in at least some parts of daily life." ...it "involves a persistent, intense, chronic fear of being judged by others and of being embarrassed or humiliated by one's own actions." There are many physical side effects that correlate such as (listing ones I personally struggle with) blushing, sweating, panic attacks, heart race, and avoiding social interaction in general. Often times this leads to coping mechanisms that are harmful and addictive in a wide range, which I have also struggled for years with.
The point of me publicizing such personal issues is that I hope people who interact with me may understand a little bit more about why I am the way I am. If I have offended you or bothered you in anyway, especially if it be by how self-conscious I am, by my obsessions with vanity, by choosing not to participate in a game you've chosen to play, if I have "bailed" on plans with you, or have avoided a friendship that could have taken place, I'm truly sorry and am working everyday to overcome my struggles.
In learning to understand myself, I have been taught that I need to be as kind and understanding to others as I would hope they'd be to me. No one's family is perfect. No individual is perfect and we are all struggling with different addictions, disorders and trials. I can only hope that by changing myself, I can see a change in the world. That I can be of more service to those around me. That I'll be more aware of the needs of others. That my tongue will be used to bless lives instead of as a sword. I hope that if I have wronged you, that you may find it in your heart to forgive me, and that I too may become a more forgiving person.
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Lilly is getting a little....
Exactly a week ago, we were able to find out the gender of our new baby! My mom drove down and took David, Lilly and I out for lunch at the Olive Garden, then we all met with David's mom at the doctor's office. I was so nervous they would tell me I wasn't actually 16 weeks along and that I'd have to come back in a week or two when the baby was further developed or something. David had made a poll on Facebook asking whether our friends and family thought we'd get a boy or a girl. At first, it seemed like everyone wanted us to have a boy just because we already have a girl, but David and I were really hoping for Lilly to have a little sister! After the votes were tallied, it was directly even - 50% said boy and 50% said girl. Even though we both "felt" like it was going to be a boy, we had thought of numerous girl names and only one boy name to agree on. Only a few seconds after the ultrasound began, we could all identify what gender the baby was without the technician even telling us. It was another little girl!
I don't know how I did it, but I managed to keep our secret until 3 days later when we held a gender announcement get-together with anyone that wanted to join us. David and I made white cupcakes filled with bright pink batter then had everyone close their eyes and take a bite. Most of the people were very surprised which made for fun reactions.
We couldn't be more excited for our sweet girl to join our family around March 28th, 2013. Lilly is going to love having a playmate! David's out-numbered 3 to 1 now. Maybe our next baby will be a boy to carry on David's family name... the pressure is on! :) I think for now I'll focus on not throwing up and taking naps when Lilly's asleep. Pretty soon I won't have that kind of luxury!
I don't know how I did it, but I managed to keep our secret until 3 days later when we held a gender announcement get-together with anyone that wanted to join us. David and I made white cupcakes filled with bright pink batter then had everyone close their eyes and take a bite. Most of the people were very surprised which made for fun reactions.
We couldn't be more excited for our sweet girl to join our family around March 28th, 2013. Lilly is going to love having a playmate! David's out-numbered 3 to 1 now. Maybe our next baby will be a boy to carry on David's family name... the pressure is on! :) I think for now I'll focus on not throwing up and taking naps when Lilly's asleep. Pretty soon I won't have that kind of luxury!
Temple Sealing + Surprise!
On September 16th, 2012 David, Lilly and I had the opportunity to be sealed for time and all eternity in the Manti, Utah Temple. We chose Manti (even though it was two hours away) because we met at Snow College in Ephraim, just a few miles down the road. I guess we're sentimental like that ;)
What a big day! For a long time I never thought I would, but hoped I could get to a place in my life to be worthy of a temple marriage (or sealing). It takes a lot of hard work and dedication, but I think if your heart truly longs to do what's right to get your family to the temple, it becomes much easier. The biggest change I had to make was getting in the habit of reading my scriptures at night with David. It doesn't seem very difficult, but David and I are night owls and tend to stay up all night then crash into bed with not an ounce of energy left in us.. leaving it really hard to stay awake to read a chapter aloud, then say family prayers, then personal prayers. We're still not perfect at it, but I think we've taken great strides to be better people, to form better habits, and to try just a little harder to become the people Heavenly Father hopes we'll become.
The day of our sealing was also my first time going through the temple, outside of doing baptisms when I was younger. It was a flurry of excitement, nerves, knew knowledge, and many, many, many emotions! I cried... a lot... haha, but when David and I were in the sealing room with all our loved ones there to support us, the most beautiful feelings swept over me. Then, when our sweet daughter Lillian was also sealed to us, the strongest most magnificent love for her and my own little family overwhelmed me (that's when I REALLY lost it...) haha. It was a very sweet ceremony.
After we took a few pictures on phones, we headed back to Orem to get ready for our little dinner celebration at David's grandmother's home. We had grilled pineapple, chicken kabobs with peppers and onions, and tariyaki rice. YUM. Many of our family members and best friends were there so we thought it'd be a great time for a surprise to be unveiled! Before we blessed the food, David thanked everyone who was there to support our family of four being sealed that day, then slightly motioned to my stomach. Family of four?! Yep! We are having another baby!! That made our day a little extra special :)
There's no better feeling than knowing that my family will be together forever. Before being sealed, I couldn't have imagined the difference I'd feel in my home or the increased desire I have to make right choices for myself that will also lead my children to choose the right. I love David, Lilly and baby #2 with more love than I could ever have thought possible. Families are beautiful. There's nothing more fulfilling or rewarding than having and being part of your own, unique family. And I thank my Heavenly Father everyday for giving me such sweet ones to love and care for! <3
What a big day! For a long time I never thought I would, but hoped I could get to a place in my life to be worthy of a temple marriage (or sealing). It takes a lot of hard work and dedication, but I think if your heart truly longs to do what's right to get your family to the temple, it becomes much easier. The biggest change I had to make was getting in the habit of reading my scriptures at night with David. It doesn't seem very difficult, but David and I are night owls and tend to stay up all night then crash into bed with not an ounce of energy left in us.. leaving it really hard to stay awake to read a chapter aloud, then say family prayers, then personal prayers. We're still not perfect at it, but I think we've taken great strides to be better people, to form better habits, and to try just a little harder to become the people Heavenly Father hopes we'll become.
The day of our sealing was also my first time going through the temple, outside of doing baptisms when I was younger. It was a flurry of excitement, nerves, knew knowledge, and many, many, many emotions! I cried... a lot... haha, but when David and I were in the sealing room with all our loved ones there to support us, the most beautiful feelings swept over me. Then, when our sweet daughter Lillian was also sealed to us, the strongest most magnificent love for her and my own little family overwhelmed me (that's when I REALLY lost it...) haha. It was a very sweet ceremony.
After we took a few pictures on phones, we headed back to Orem to get ready for our little dinner celebration at David's grandmother's home. We had grilled pineapple, chicken kabobs with peppers and onions, and tariyaki rice. YUM. Many of our family members and best friends were there so we thought it'd be a great time for a surprise to be unveiled! Before we blessed the food, David thanked everyone who was there to support our family of four being sealed that day, then slightly motioned to my stomach. Family of four?! Yep! We are having another baby!! That made our day a little extra special :)
There's no better feeling than knowing that my family will be together forever. Before being sealed, I couldn't have imagined the difference I'd feel in my home or the increased desire I have to make right choices for myself that will also lead my children to choose the right. I love David, Lilly and baby #2 with more love than I could ever have thought possible. Families are beautiful. There's nothing more fulfilling or rewarding than having and being part of your own, unique family. And I thank my Heavenly Father everyday for giving me such sweet ones to love and care for! <3
The gorgeous Manti, Utah Temple
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Writers Block
So, I guess the last time I posted something new was in January of this year... and there's a reason for it.
Here's a little personal insight on my insecurities. I'm very good at journal keeping and enjoy expressing my feelings, opinions and experiences with others, therefore I thought I'd be good at blogging. As I read many other blogs, both professional and of everyday women like myself, I became very discouraged about my writing style, my photography and overall creativity. I didn't get an education after high school, I don't especially love English, and I take pictures with a little point and shoot camera, making my blog a little more "ghetto" than so many others out there. My husband and his cousin both told me that I should keep writing and that I shouldn't compare my blog to other blogs but I was determined to delete it anyway. For some reason, I guess I didn't and now, I'm pretty glad for not doing so!
This is an introduction to a new chapter for Simona's Memory. My personal blog about family, food, fun, and lots of other random stuff :) and I'll do my best to update it often. Hope you come back to visit!
Here's a little personal insight on my insecurities. I'm very good at journal keeping and enjoy expressing my feelings, opinions and experiences with others, therefore I thought I'd be good at blogging. As I read many other blogs, both professional and of everyday women like myself, I became very discouraged about my writing style, my photography and overall creativity. I didn't get an education after high school, I don't especially love English, and I take pictures with a little point and shoot camera, making my blog a little more "ghetto" than so many others out there. My husband and his cousin both told me that I should keep writing and that I shouldn't compare my blog to other blogs but I was determined to delete it anyway. For some reason, I guess I didn't and now, I'm pretty glad for not doing so!
This is an introduction to a new chapter for Simona's Memory. My personal blog about family, food, fun, and lots of other random stuff :) and I'll do my best to update it often. Hope you come back to visit!
Monday, January 9, 2012
Hospital
I decided to get some pictures together to tell a little more about our experience with Lilly's birth, since it was NOTHING like I thought it would be. I had read anything and everything I could find on the internet about pregnancy, labor, post labor, etc. Not to mention every story family, friends and strangers had to offer. Mistake? I'm still not sure, but to my surprise and great luck, labor went more smoothly than imaginable and the experience was unforgettable!
P.s. I would take Lilly's labor over pregnancy ANY DAY!
P.s. I would take Lilly's labor over pregnancy ANY DAY!
This is how we told our family's the gender. David and I spray painted our own t-shirts and called everyone to see if they thought we were having a boy or girl. The people who were right got to know the gender before the others!
Pretty apprehensive. Today, everything changes!
Our beautiful baby girl arrives after only pushing through 3 contractions!
There were no complications. The only thing abnormal was that Lilly was born without "brown fat", which is the fat lining the muscles of one's body to regulate their temperature. She was so skinny! They had to do 3 tests on her every hour until she could keep her own body warm. Then Mommy finally got her back!
Proud Daddy stayed by Lilly's side through everything. (He was also great support during labor. Lilly and I are lucky girls!)
Grandma Czirban was the first to visit the new little one! Only an hour after she was born. Three generations of little girls with big dimples!
Pretty girls :)
David's family came as soon as they could. Great Grandma Sommers, Grandma Martin and Sammy Martin had all returned from a two week long trip in Europe that day. Thank goodness they were home just in time to see Lilly the same day she was born!
Three generations (minus David)
Great Grandma Sommers holding Lilly for the first time
Grandma and Grandpa Martin holding Lillian for their first times!
Sammy, holding her new niece!
David's youngest sister, Melanie, holding Lilly
No, this isn't an extra large carseat. She was so tiny, I was afraid they wouldn't let us take her home because she hardly fit in her carseat! Good thing she's got lots of padding to surround her!
And to finish up, I'd like to share a poem that got me through those long days of pregnancy and all the depression, illnesses, aches, and stretch marks that go with it!
"A mark for every breath you took, every blink, every sleepy yawn. One for every time you sucked your thumb, waved hello, closed your eyes and slept in the most perfect darkness. One for every time you had the hiccups. One for every dream you dreamed within me. It isn't very pretty anymore. Some may even think it ugly. That's okay. It was your home. It's where I first grew to love you, where I lay my hand as I dreamed about who you were and who you would be. It held you until my arms could, and for that, I will always find something beautiful in it."
~Given to me from Mecayle Kunz
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Food Creations
David and I both enjoy all kinds of creativity and art. We also love food. (Who doesn't, right?!) So over the last year we've come up with some pretty cool food creations and of course, had to document them with pictures. David loves to share his ideas with all the family and friends he can think of - so I'm sure he won't mind me posting them to the world. ;) Enjoy!
Keep in mind that I am no self proclaimed photographer!
Keep in mind that I am no self proclaimed photographer!
A few days before Easter 2011, we drove to Heber to my parent's house to decorate the most amazing of all sugar cookies!
David, having a special moment with his decorated butterfly
We shared my plate of cookies that night with David's parents and sisters.
David and I created our own recipe called "Breakfast Hotdogs". We dip hot dog buns in French Toast batter, then cook them in a frying pan. Cook up some breakfast sausage links, poor some syrup over the top and powder sugar those babies! Man are they DE-LISH!
I guess David has been wanting an apple corer/slicer for a long time. His mom picked one up for us at a garage sale and hot dang, I had no idea how sweet it would be! I eat ALL of my apple now.. haha
These would be our rainbow cupcakes.
We made two kinds, 1- traditional rainbow colors and 2- spring time colors!
We decorated the tops and brought them over to our friends and family members. Who loved them, by the way!
Yep. We're good.
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Photos, FINALLY!
It took me a long time to get the photos from my wedding - and then it took a long time to be able to get them to view on my computer. So, after being married nearly a year, here they are!
The Martins - Est. 3/5/11
I don't think David or I could have looked more nervous!
My sweet brother, Taylor, walked me down the isle.
My new niece, Jessica, was our adorable flower girl!
Happy newly-weds!
As many know, I have one brother and five sisters. Well, in David's family, he IS the brother, with four sisters! Lucky for me, that means I now have nine girls to love!
Couldn't leave out a picture of the besties :)
The very best decision of my life, was to marry my very best friend.
I love you, David Bruce Martin.
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