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Friday, January 25, 2013
Vacation
I really need a vacation. Not just any ol' vacation.. I mean one from all responsibilities like motherhood, church callings, homemaker, being an adult in general, everything. I'm ready to be skinny and feel like a normal human again who has control over my own body and emotions. The beach is my happy place and I can't even remember the last time I was there.. It would be so nice to go on a cruise to a warm, sunny, Carribbean island and run around a soft, sandy beach. Just to be able to turn off sections of my brain, and completely relax for once. No anxiety, no stress, no ACID REFLUX. To get a good nights sleep - uninterrupted. No crying children, no waking up every time I have to switch from my left side to my right. No getting up to pee every three hours. No back or hip or leg or pelvic pain. To be able to sleep on my back and stomach again! No laundry or dishes or vacuuming up crackers that got stepped on and mashed into the carpet. No writing checks and constantly paying bills. No need to spend hours on hair and makeup just to be dissatisfied with the results. No need to wear painful and uncomfortable clothes to avoid judgement. I just want to be with David. Talking and laughing and swinging on a hammock. Drinking giant icy piña coladas like we did on our honeymoon...
I feel like I'm going crazy.
Yes. A vacation is what I need.
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my poor pregnant Shelbs! I remember those feelings well! Come out here and we will go to the beach! I want to go to San Diego this summer if $$ allows it!
ReplyDeleteI wish the same things you mentioned quite often myself....
I wish I could help! You make me scared to have children because I quite enjoy my me-time with Dave. LOL. I love you girl!
ReplyDeleteI haven't been on a single vacation since I've been married... let alone since I've had kids!
ReplyDeleteSo, Rochelle, we would love to go to the beach with you this summer! We were planning on using some tax refund money to drive to California so that would work out perfectly!
Kim, don't let my issues make you afraid of having kids, cuz no matter how much I complain, I can honestly say that Lilly is my greatest joy and accomplishment in life. There really is nothing as rewarding as being a mom! ...With that being said, it sure is hard, especially if you've got emotional or anxiety issues to begin with (what girl doesn't). I still get "alone time" with David, but it's usually just watching TV together after Lilly is in bed. We need to be better at going on dates and having someone take Lilly off our hands for a few hours.. cuz you don't realize you're desperate for alone time til' it's too late and you have a melt down, like me! Haha.
You guys should take a little vacation down to stacy and brenda's condo or something like that for the weekend. We could totally help watch Lily and it would be such a great break before the baby comes. I hear your pain with wanting your body back! But totally worth it!
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