Vacation

I really need a vacation. Not just any ol' vacation.. I mean one from all responsibilities like motherhood, church callings, homemaker, being an adult in general, everything. I'm ready to be skinny and feel like a normal human again who has control over my own body and emotions. The beach is my happy place and I can't even remember the last time I was there.. It would be so nice to go on a cruise to a warm, sunny, Carribbean island and run around a soft, sandy beach. Just to be able to turn off sections of my brain, and completely relax for once. No anxiety, no stress, no ACID REFLUX. To get a good nights sleep - uninterrupted. No crying children, no waking up every time I have to switch from my left side to my right. No getting up to pee every three hours. No back or hip or leg or pelvic pain. To be able to sleep on my back and stomach again! No laundry or dishes or vacuuming up crackers that got stepped on and mashed into the carpet. No writing checks and constantly paying bills. No need to spend hours on hair and makeup just to be dissatisfied with the results. No need to wear painful and uncomfortable clothes to avoid judgement. I just want to be with David. Talking and laughing and swinging on a hammock. Drinking giant icy piña coladas like we did on our honeymoon...
I feel like I'm going crazy.

Yes. A vacation is what I need.